I visited his ashrams for a couple of years after Babaji took his samadhi.
It was during these visits that I realised I was not fitting in well under the new environment.
Sometimes I could not decide what was to be done.
Then I was reminded of what he had said in 1962,
"Dada, you stay at home."
I did not understand then why he wanted me to do so.
The understanding came when my excursions to his ashrams proved to be a failure.
After I stopped visiting the ashrams, some ardent devotees started saying, "Dada has left Baba."
When faced with a statement like this, the only reply I could give was, "When did I catch hold of Baba that I could leave him now?
He caught me! I could never catch him, so there is no question of leaving him." That is all of it.